Thinking is a paradox

Its ironic that I feel obliged to pour out my thoughts and creativity at the time when sleep looms large over my head
When do people think , How is our thought process generated? Why do we have related thought processes and always get stuck on a topic which pains us the most.
For example if you are thinking about a class you need to take tomorrow
The class is of research methods
You think of the research project you had done in your engineering days
That engineering project I had done with an ex girl friend
and thats where you go into a vicious loop !
How is she, where is she , did I dump her or did I get dumped , was she good to me ,was she mean was she the one etc etc.
Its always the case that the thing that saddens you occupies your thinking capability the most the thought process is deemed to end up in a recurring loop inevitably .
Now when a person is falling asleep it is this recurring thought process which pushes him into the state of sleep .Its like the brains abort program for ending an infinite loop . The more you pain the mind with the intricacies the more confused you are bound to get.
Thinking as a paradox is an experiment which aims at minimizing the band width of your thought process the more extreme you get inyour thought process the longer it may take to arrive at a result so what needs to be done to get an optimum result from any perticular chain of ideas is to counter balance it so that you are able to tread the middle path for most amount of time hence arriving at a solution.
For example if you are wondering how can you get a job in this recession period
the thought might start with why the recession started
If you can control the stream at this point it self to redirect to your own situation rather than the vicious circle of the reason the recession started you are more likely to arrive at a result sooner rather than later . This control of flow needs to be maintianed and should be kept under constant vigil and developed if you are ever to achieve a decisive decision making capability.
Irony rules that you get into a confused thought process if you read this hence try to understand it as well as possible by treading the middle path !