jittery and nervous
every one of us
confused and bemused easily
trying hard not to look silly
yet as lost as everyone else
for fear and anxiety swells

stepping forward with a nervous gaze
the outside is worse than a crystal maze
lookin hither thither for a calming sight
but are always encroached with more fright
solace they seek above all
evading the inevitable fall

Jump over to the other side my friend
from the precarious path u tread
inhibitions are to be shedded
and only the demon need be dreaded
fight your instinct and take to the wings
embrace what the future brings .

Sense and sensebility . two things that dont come to me regularly ,except when i am drunk.
Divine intervention is needed to further my career as a consummate faffer.Cant seem to find reason . dont even know where to look for it . For the inside of my mind is like a set of fried circutary and the oustide is equally eccentric. Teeming with minions looking for reason and some who dont even know that they should look for reason. Criptic messages hang over every one of them and I am the only one trying to decipher them , sending out warning messages as I approach as they fear me most. People always seem to think that they are different and I would be more than glad to break their glass house.

Stam-mer

Have you ever felt like you are being kicked repeatedly and you really don’t care about it.

 Like the pain is a part of you and if it stops you feel like something missing in life,

That’s how I feel every waking hour not knowing how to stop the pain and not wanting the pain to stop either yet I feel it and yet I don’t resist.

Keep wondering what I need to do to get out of my current preoccupation.  Its like in an instant my thoughts range from a renegade freedom fighter to an imperialist scorning mankind for its lack of creativity.

Sometimes I feel like I am the last of my kind and sometimes I feel like I am just one among the crowd unable to stand out unable to get recognised.

This is my story , this is my stammer through life !!