Identity Crisis

Hi my name is Venkat Siddarth rather it is Gudiseva Veera Venkata Surya Satya Vara Siddhartha.

All these 44 characters usually get reduced to 3-5 letters when I am being addressed by friends ,family etc. Most commonly it reduces to "Sid" or "Venki".

"SID" is a very common name I observe.

And sometimes some people forget that it is my name as well and when they see a folder by the name "Sid" on my desktop they think it has something to do with the various other "Sids" around and question my motives.

I m used to being called by other names which have nothing to do with the seven names given to me by my fore-fathers.

But when people question my usage of the one name given to me by my beloved parents it pisses me off.

Over the past twenty four years I have amassed more than twenty nick names all from extremely creative people which necessitates that they have nothing to do with my real name. Hence I am now programmed do respond to many words some of which also have a derogatory connotation.

It often happens that two people are arguing and indulging in name calling and out of the blue one of the flowery words they use is similar to one of my nick name.

Hence now I am stuck in the world with innumerable names but none I can call my own. Not one name which makes me stand out and this has lead to a sort of identity crisis recently. It is only today that I have realised all these names are my identity. I am a person with many identities. There are Jacks of all arts. I am the Sid of all names.